Too Much Thinking

*warning! might have a brain overload after reading this*

i think a lot! too much in my opinion.  it's so bad that if i don't take melatonin at night, it'll keep me up all night long.  i guess you could consider that a good thing lol it means i get a lot of thinking done.  but its also bad because then for the next two days i'm pretty much a waste of space....and now this "issue" has gotten in the way of my school work. i probably spend about a 1/2 hour to hour (maybe even hour and a 1/2 some days) just staring and thinking.  now i don't do it all at once,, i periodically stop and just sit there.  most the time just thinking about how much i hate homework and how much i would love to just walk away and say "ya my book lit on fire, so i couldn't finish my homework, shit happens you know?", not sure my teacher would approve lol but maybe it would make her laugh and she would say "well just this once Chelsea, but go "buy" another book so you can keep up on the rest of the weeks homeworks".

wishful thinking right? right.  i don't just think about how much i hate homework.  of course i think about other useless things.  like what happened friday (briefly explained here).  i just can't get it out of my head.  and i'm pretty sure it's because it reminds me so much of high school.  let's just be honest now, i hated high school.  all the cliques, *whisper whisper* here, *whisper whisper* there (talk about annoying),  people just weren't honest, ever.  i like people to be honest.  you have a problem with me or something i did, please come talk to me about it, not everyone else in the room.  and they just were not open, always so judgey.  i guess you could say i really didn't mesh, click, or get along with anyone really.  i was always considered the weird one, i ran.  that was so weird.  it really isn't that weird that people like to exercise lol.  but what i'm really trying to get at is, because of all this, it just made me a very angry person.  anger kinda runs in my family.  i couldn't really control it.  it wasn't really the best place i was in.  and after i finally graduated high school, some of my anger went away.  i could control it.  it was great, i was back to being the happy person i am.  back to friday, the girls doing what they did, brought me back to high school because it made me so angry and i couldn't control it.  which in turn made me even angrier.  so sorry for taking you through a very small portion of what goes on in my head lol

but i took my anger out yesterday on my run. a good hard 10 miler.  felt great to be running the whole time in an uncomfortable pace.  weird? maybe, but i love uncomfortable paces.  they make me feel great when i'm done.  like maybe for once i will conquer the world and rule. jk jk.  but i am defiantly sore today.

my saturday runs really make me wish i could at least run 8 miles on my long run days during the week.  but that would mean getting up earlier than i already do, which is just not safe for the people i am around all day lol.  eventually i will be able to run 8+ on my long run days :)

love this color so much!!

i love this color so much that when my nails start to chip and it's noticeable, i will paint them this color again.  only thing i did not like about it was that i had to do 3 coats instead of 2.

my favorite one i have ever recieved

my mom, every year, always gives me and my brother an ornament.  mine are always the starbucks ones.  makes me thrilled to pieces when she gives them to me.  they are like preemie christmas gifts, which are always fun :)

it's just cute, right?!

i mean, how could you not love this??  makes me want to go get me some coffee, even though i've deemed it bad like vampires.  but it always smells so good, it probably has thorns like roses.....

do you ever buy the starbucks ornaments??

ever had a brain overload?

everyday lol

what was your workout this weekend??

do you like (almost) nude nail polishes??

of course!! completely addicted, it's my color scheme for the blog lol